5 days. In 5 days the girls will be 1 year old. We will have made it through a long/short/challenging/fun/stressful/tear inducing/wouldn’t change it for the world year. Sofia and I have been talking a lot about what we were doing this time last year. I was enormous and uncomfortable. I was too tired to go walking around on Halloween with Sofia. I would sleep the first part of the night on the couch, then move into the bedroom around 2 or 3 in the morning. I couldn’t make it the whole night in one spot so I would switch it up. I was starving but couldn’t eat without heartburn or feeling full immediately. There was no space for food. I wish I would have taken more pics of my bump. I was counting down the days until the girls came into the world but also knew what an impact they would make on our lives. Or thought I knew. We had no idea.
Dear sleep, I’m sorry. I’ve underestimated you. In the past I didn’t give you the respect you deserved. I would mock you and tease that I only got 7 hours of sleep and how awful that was. People would ask how I was and I’d respond with not well, I didn’t sleep well, I woke up in the middle of the night and it took me 10 minutes to fall back asleep. They would shake their head, sympathizing at how awful that must be. Poor girl, they’d think. Only 7 hours of sleep. What a trooper she is. How strong she must be. Oh how wrong I was.
Can we make a deal? If I give you the praise you deserve will you come back? I know, I know the twins are teething and sick so I’ll be realistic, but any glimpse of you would be much appreciated. People now ask how I am and I’ll shout “Amazing! I slept three hours last night in a row! I feel like a new woman!” Last night, as Gracie shrieked every time we put her in her crib, I sang along to Twinkle, Twinkle making up my own words about how great sleep was and didn’t she want to try it. She’s not sold, but I am. Go sleep! — you’re biggest fan.
Has it really been 4 years since our last update? 4 years. In a blink they have passed. Days went by planning posts announcing additions to the family, months passed waiting, finally wishes came true but didn’t want to jinx anything. Then exhaustion and survival. Which seems silly to say as we have a warm roof over our head, loved ones to support us and food in our belly. Survival isn’t really that hard is it? The days have been long but the past 10 months have been oh so short. The past 4 years passed in a moment and then these two arrived. And the adventure began.
Our legs are intertwined as we snuggle on the couch. A blanket is partially covering us, empty chocolate coin wrappers from the Advent calendar are scattered on the table next to us. Sofia has a doll on her lap and is combing her hair methodically as I read to her from a book we got at the library. A chapter book. With only a few pictures scattered inside. Sofia has been really focused on reading these past few months. She has a couple beginner reading books, and they read a chapter in a chapter book each afternoon at school. I use the library as a bribe now, and it works. She begs to go. A couple of months ago we wandered through the stacks and came to the shelves that house the collections of chapter books. Ramona is there, as is Nancy Drew, Boxcar children and Diary of a Wimpy Kid. I was a bit unsure of how Sofia would do with some of these… and then finally we came across the perfect series. Junie B. Jones. We had seen her featured in a play last year and Sofia loved it. We took a few books off the shelf and brought them home. We’ve now read them all. Sometimes two a day. Now we are on to the next series, Ivy and Bean. I love that Sofia loves to read as much as I did. As I still do but seem to never have the time.
This year has been so busy. How is it December already? Really? Only three blog posts this whole year? How is that possible… Every year at this time I make the same vow to slow down and relish the times we have, no matter how extravagant, no matter how mundane. This was my new years resolution this past year. Dolce fa niente. Sweetness in doing nothing. Snuggled up, on the couch, eating chocolate and laughing with bean. Perfection.